PROOF !!

ignoring the phone
as it kept ringing
i am in the middle
of finding my callingwasting countless minutes on the phone
talking something that is beyond my grasp
i had to put out an end to the thing of the past
as the future beckoned me with open armsdaydreaming is a thing of the past
sleepless nights not anymore
choices have been made and
the die has been castfeels like I’m lost in a moment
I’m always winning the wrong battles
seems like it’s time to begin
and put an end to this winning streakbetrayal is something i am used to
maybe that’s why i am fighting a
lonely battle with all guns blazing
no friends, no allies, just aim and shootno matter what happens
the world keeps on turning
never feeling a thing
it goes on and on and on
until one day everything disappears for good
just like that, just like DUST 

Where is the love....

Morning bloggie syg..hmmmm...bok bgun ku tk..trus on9..ku cek fb jap b4 g mndi..hmmmm..ku pun da jguk wall nya kjap,..n its so suprising..................... Cdeh ku tnga pa nok dtulis kat wall ko ya.. :'( ko da grek ka..? mun ada boh lbh2 an aku..ya,.ku mmg dah jtuh an ko,.p..ok.ku diam jk,,xmok tjukkn gilak..coz datz is my rules.. bdo bh aku,.knk mk jtuhkan ai mta pas tnga wall nya..? bduh ko katie! buduh! :'( mun ko ska aku bab muka aku tk, dgn rasminya,.ku xmok ko.. knk haa..? pa ku mk just aty nok setia, n boleh jga aku..bkn owg nok hnya jtuh bab tnga muka aku.. aku xska, honestly.., guys, pliz dont do this to the gurls.. not all of them is cruel as u think.. n i noe, some of guys also like that..not all of them is cruel n playing a fool on gurls.. keep it up guys! gurls also have feeling, feeling that no one know,..some gurls are very sensitive, so, keep watch on it k.. the puriest heart is the key to unlock it.. :') dont cheating on us, orait..??
hmmmm... hv to go now,.wanna take a bath.. bcuk la me..! :') heeee... c u later bloggie... muaxxx!!! thanx..!! off~

Love, Love, Love :)

Morning sweet december.. muax! u come into my life,.n hopefully u will gimme some suprise on this december.. i will be waiting .. :) weeiii, i dont know what to say la my dear,. hapie ,sad, suprise o wat? argh! bingungku.. I missing him ody, naaa...u c,.its ur fault laa.. but i want to be a part of ur life, the one who can takin care of u, as what her love should do.. n u you love, hopefully u can changing me inside n outside,.really need it.. :( hmmmmmm.... im unperfect 4 u.. i just can do what i think is da best 4 this love,im not pretty enough,but surely i can take care of u..n u will nver regret it.. :) dont want la talk bout 'love' again..lets talk bout me.. :)

aiyaaaiiii...,this morning need to wakin up early lor,at 7.30 o'clock..aiyoooo... too early liao.. need to go to work..i will miss my lappy after this..im goin back home at 12 a.m..fuhhhh... so tired la me later,.after this mybe i should off to bed,.need some rest..this week im kinda be very bz n tired.. working in da morning till midnight,.starting from today,tmorow,on friday n saturday... Oh dear,.. =.="

waaaaaaaaaa..!! its 6 a.m oredy!! need to clip now,.or im gonna be late.. bloggie, mybe im gonna meet u again on sunday i guess..okay..? i will miss u!!! muuuuuaaaaaahhhhhsssss..!!! God Bless Me!!! papaiii~ :)

0h my G0d!

Elow bl0ggie.. Hmmmm.. N0t in m0od 2day.. Im at paxen n0w,.b0ring lu..nak balik! Nak balik! :'( hmmm..td ku an kwn kt beach,dh sy0k2,epie2,.then tiba2 ujan,.wat t0 do.. Chaw jak laaa.. N then,ku br prsan time kt paxen tek,gelang kaki ku ilang.. Ptt la len jak asa,. Wuwuwuu... S0meb0dy,pliz buy 0ne 4 me bh.. :p palak ku sakit lu,xtauk phl bh..dhlh xmakan tek,amik bkpz pun x,..slra mk mkn,ilang cmya jak..juz mkn k0k0berry n crisps jak time kt beach tek.. Lapar lu ku tk,p xda slra.. Bia laaa.. Diet jak,mk krgkn brat bdn,.. Mk blit ku,b0ring lu paxen tk.. Bh,chaw l0k bl0ggie ku syg... Mlm lak ku agak ko g k.. Muax! Muax! Muax! Papaii~

Million things On my Mind... n its sucks !!

1stly, im thinking bout my old life..boy..,i miss our long talks, i miss always being together, i miss you being my best friend, n my love.. i miss your laugh and your smile, i miss how much you used to care.. but mostly i just miss you...where are u now..? are u ok..? hmmmm.... still cant 4get u.. theres been 5 month we separated with each other.. weeiii, i miss u , u now... :'( what should i do..?? hmmmmmmmmmm....


2ndly, im thinking bout my parent.. waaaa..,bila lg mau blik nie..? lama mai ba kpg..miss both of u bah,..ouhya.,thanx 4 calling me yesterday mumy.. ku akan jga ksihatan, n mkai kuat2,.dont worry k mumy... :')
later, t dh plai ke umah kitu, kak blaya puas2 an mumy..ehee.. miss ya..


3rdly, i was thinking bout guys,..hmmmmm.. =.=' dont want to think bout it again... lalalalalalalalaaaa~ ( but the truth is im still thinking bout it )


4th,.hmmmmmm...... What will happen to me in future..??????? No answer at all...!!!!!! x(

Lexia - Basements(NEW SONG)

Im so stupid..!!! :'(

i feel so so so so so so so so so damn upset now........ xmok cta pnjg lebar,.. malas... :'(
in da same time ku rindu mk cta an blog aku tk..p so sorry k.. x suma bnda nok blaku lam idup aku pat ku luahkan kat blog... smpan lam aty jak... better 4 me... bloggie, c u next tyme k... :'( papaaiiii................

Mok tdoe g!!!!!!!!!!

moning bloggie dear!! awal ku bgn pagi tk..waaaaa... ( +______+) still mk tdoe baa... p wat to do, ku start kja lak bh..aiyooo...hope kja ya bestla bab ku xpnah2 kja tmpt cmya bh..ateeeiii..anyway, mun bowing xpa juak, bab ZARINA VERYCUTELITIS GURLZ ada an ku kja cya..waaaawww!! kmpom best bh ya lak mun da owg sma plak an aku..ahahahahhaaa,. adoeehh..skit plak ku eyh..xckup tdoe g tk koh.. waaaaaa!! mk tdoe g bhh!!!! X(  hmmmmmm!!!!!!!
dh ckup dh msa tk..better ku logout..hee...ku tk mun mk bciap kna amik msa... : p
kla dear bloggie, mk chaw lok..pastok jarang la ku on9 n meet an ko my bloggie2 sweetie..i will mish u liao..huhuu,.n i will mish my lappy, my pillow, my beddy, my big bear named momo, my b.b , n mostly..i will mish my fon damn much coz eventhough i'll bring it along..., still cannot sama an nya baaa..kna smpan lam loker liao..huhuhh...boringgg... (=.=") aiyooo..td mk logout, xabiz2 jk cta...bh2, c u 2nite dear bloggie, later ku cta blit an ko k..tatatitittuttuuu~ muuuuaaaaahhhhhssss!!!!!!!! :(

Party..!!!

hey my boggie bloggie..ehee.,.miss u so muchh!!muaxx!! :*
ahaa.last day skul ritok..aiyoo..gonna miss my skul loo..p nvm, next year gonna meet u again my f***in skul... weeiii,..got party bh tek..ahahahahaa,..besttt!!!! enjoi it with u ol guys!! on my way to tman awam,,.ku an morris Jawan tek..k mto legend ijo nya nok Bruum2~ yaa...skit tlinga ku morris..ahahahhahaaa,..p ok gak..lma dh x k mto..btw, thanx coz tmpgkn aku..ahahaaa,.zarina pun k mto wak tek..best2..p pnas loo..its ok laa..ukan salu pun nak..:) ehee..tke a few mnutes tok smpai kt tmn awam..adeehhh...lelah2, naik trun tgga.. * i wish tman awam ya lak da ekskalator,amen* waaaa...da juak owg party tek oo..ful tmpt, nsib cgek g tggl..mun x, tpaksa la mek owg wat pool party ..ahahahhaa,.. byk lu mknan n minuman..xpat abizkan..ateeii..part plg best,tyme maen tepung..game ya ya nok plg best n hv fun toll..tetak jk kja eyhh...fuhh..tyme ku mk amik gmbar muka cdaknya pnuh an tepung, cipeetttt!!ku kna tikam an tepung juak ,.ahahahhaa,..mey ren,,..ingt ko oo.. XD p ku puas laa..bab ku pat bls dndam tk..astagaa..biz bjik mta ku msok tepung ya tek..leh wat cucur mata baa..nasib ku pat slmatkan contact lens ku yaa..haizz..bhya2..putih jk bnda nok ku tngaa..ku pk ku dh msuk syurga tek..lol..ahahahhaaa,..byk gilak pkra blaku ritok..p diamkan laaa..xmok gago2.. ku an za tek lit an Mr,Barny n Mr Camcey oo..wat lawak bduh lam kta..tetak,tetak, tetak jk kjaa...ya bok best..:D
Barny n Camcey, where is my.........bla, bla, blaa..well, u both noe maa..kan za kan..ahahhahaaa,..agak blvrd lok tek b4 blit umh..ehee..kat jln luak ya tek..mek owg nmpak accident oo!!live g ya!! babi tol,..kta 4 wheel drive prado..,laju kli nya kat corner yaa..smpey kan keta nya limpas jln mek owg n trus lggar dinding umh owg tepi jln yaa..yabihh..nsib keta nya x limpas time mek owg kat corner ya tek..mun x, papai jk la an torang..dhlh ku ddk tpi blah knan yaa..nasib x mati awal...mnakutkan tol.. anyway, thanx GOD...XD
lam keta mek 2 za non stop ngco cdak 2 monkey yaa..ahahahhaa,..tetak2 jk...bduh eyh...smpe umh..waaaaa...kuat letih liao.. kaki ku pnat g!!! apuuuu..lelak mai aaa... =.=''
ok laaa..chaw lok bloggie skalian yg ku sygi..ehee.. papaaiii~ c ya soon..;p

Emilia - Im a Big Big Girl, Lyrics

Pagi yg Boreeennnnggggggg~

morninnggg..!!! doe,.boring lu pagi tk bh..dhlah awal bgun..teeeiiii..mataaaiii..tyme mndik tek, ku praiti2 mka ku,,astagaaa..pimple suda mula bikin kcau , plus,... mata da kit iras2 panda.. p ku still nmpak kiut laa..ahahahahaa..*prasan abiz* ritok cuti, xda g skul..mk polah pa hoe.. sok pun cuti gk...jumaat tk bok lazt skul..cant wait liao..!!!! XD aawwwww~~ p im gonna miz my skul, especially my table..coz ku salu ttdoe tas mja ya..ahaaa,. =.=' miz it so..
aduussshhh.....buhsan2!!! on9  jk keja..boring eyhh!! damn!! hmmmm...awal2 pagi tek.. fon ku dh bbnyi,."tut..tuttttt..." (laaaa..za padu...) awal nya bgun oo..cantek la za..ahahahahahaa,..xpnah2 nya bgun awal gya.. ouhyaa..hope ur grandma will be ok soon,.dont think too much k.. GOD Bless her..cheers!! :) ok laa..xda cta g mk dshare tk...lak continue blit.....chaaawwww~ :D

He Lost His Love

This is a personal account of a ghost story that occured over 10 years ago.
This "true experince" firml supported my theory that our departed loved ones can convey messages through dreams.

Back in 1989, being a fresh graduate Psychology graduate, I landed a job in
the personnel department in one of the goverment offices in Quezon City. A male co-worker, Jun, was 11 years older than me. He became one of my friends while working there. Jun was king, loving, and romantic. He was the breadwinner of his family. His parents ang relatives liked me a lot. Being single and unattached, he courted me in 1990. I accepted his marraige proposal during the latter part of that year.

My parents did not approve of our relationship and when the first quarter of 1991 came, my parents made me quit my job. My dad, being a military man, even threatened Jun to Jun to stay away from me. To make our long story short, I left my job. I lost track of Jun I bussied myself with the family business. Basically, I went on with my life and tried to forget about him.

On the morning of June 2, 1994 I recieved a telegram from his aunt, saying that Jun had died the day before June1, 1994. Shocked I crumpled the short note and hurriedly phoned his aunt for confirmation. She told me that when we parted, Jun resigned from his job and drunk heavily each day. He naglected his death as well as his body. Pneumonia had caused his sudden death. "You know Jun. Everyday and up to his remaining hours, all her wanted was to see you. During his final moments, while suffering from delirium, he even told us that he still loves you very much," Jun's aunt said.

Sadly, my parents wouldn't allow me to go to his wake. I mourned quietly inside my room. There even came a point where I convinced myself that he wasn't dead.

On January 1995, just before my birthday, Jun visited me in a dream. I dreamed that I was inside a hospital room. I was wearing a hospital gown and I was sitting at the foot of my bed. Jun suddenly appeared before me, clothed in bright lights. We communicated mentally. I told him it wasn't true that he was gone. He replied that I must accept the fact that he was already dead but it didn't mean that he as leaving me. "I will always be beside you, gaurding you," he said..

I cried saying, "I'm sorry I didn't have the guts to fight for our relationship."

He comforted me and soothed me by shrouding me with his bright light. The bliss I felt was interrupted by voice calling hi name "It's time for me to go," he told me. "But what about me?" I asked, tears in my eyes. " I will be here for you always," he replied,"and I will be waiting for you there. And don't ever forget that love you very much."

After saying this, he vanished before my eyes. I woke up crying. After this accident, I finished began to accept his death. And whenever I'm depressed I feel his presence beside me I know somehow out there he's still waiting patienly for me.

Knak Torang 2 Sma Jak...? ;(

hey my bloggie..,.hmm..tiba2 ku tringt an nya..,xtauk phal..,prasaan2..knk ko camtk bh..boh polah hal eyh..boh soh aek mta tk klua..mbazir,tauk x.. :( hmmmm...dlm msa yg sma Mr.A ya sma alu cam nok sorang yaa..yala mun ku msg an Mr.A tk..,ku epie smcm jk..mun nya xda msg ku..xnyaman jk asa..asa mk mcri2 nya, p xkan kta mk ngco owg nak..?so wat 2 do..,be patient is the best way..;') bdo kan..?yala prasaan.,kita owez mdh xmk bgerek la, tk la,yalaa..p hakikatnya ta sdg mlarikan diri dr knyataan..mcm2 alasan ta wat smata2 mk ceriakn diri n mk lupakan hal ya..mcm aku..,mun an geng,..epie jk ku..tetak2 jk keja..p mun boring dh mlanda jiwa,.fuuhhh....mcm2 la mslah mnyemak kat plak hotak ku tk..peningg2.. =.="
owg pdh cinta ya indah, bhagia... ya meh..? n da juak owg pdh. mun bgerek,.ta msti bkorban utk mbuktikan cinta .. ya meh..?? plik.. mun bna la ya, xkan da owg kcewa bab cinta.. da sorang kwn ku tk..lma dh nya grek an ompuan ya..5 tahun dh..p tnga la kinek,.dua2 saling mjauhkan diri.. kwn ku ya cmburu tnga grek nya gaul an laki laen,.n ompuan ya plak pk kwn ku ya da ompuan laen, bab kwn ku ya dh jarang lyan nya g..cmne mk lyan mun stiap pa dpdh kwn ku ya nya xmok dgr,.malah mlawan g..mun aku da grek dak ya..eee..mlslh mk pdh..sndri mau tau laa..kwn ku ya bkn men setia g,.ompuan mk mbak nya grek pun nya xmok, ciap mdh g nya an ompuan ya nma greknya..ya ompuan ya mdh,nang btuah la cpa pun laki tk..p syg grek nya xpnde mk hargainyaa..mk g nya lyan laki len dr greknya..ya bok xbetol lu palak ompuan ya.. =.=" x nya sdar,laki ya just syg an nya sorang jk.. laki ya hnya mampu bdiam diri jk tnga greknya lbihkan owg len dri dirinya.. mun nya mrah pun xguna juak bab ompuan ya manjak lu,.xmok dgr ckp,.plus,.ompuan ya wez mjok2..pa laki ya bleh wat is just diamkan diri jk n let her do wat she want.. ADIL YAKA..?? I DONT THINK SO... bkan bab ku skg lelaki..p ku just skg cpa nok btol jk..mun skg owg nok slah pun xda guna nak..?k pa mk skg owg nok slh yaa..ngee~ mrah Tuhan lak..bkn hnya laki jk nok ego,.ompuan pun ada..bab ya, mun da pa2 mslh lam hbgn,..duak2 kna settlekan sma2..boh dgil bh..xbgus tk hbgn...dua2 hrus pk pa torang dh wat..n ngaku jk an grek torang ya pa slh torang an nya..datz da best way...
*aku tk bg nasihat an owg nang pnde, p mslh kdri xpat settlekn,..fuuhhh...sial dup..pa ku mk, ku x dpat pun....  ;'(  *
buat Mr.A..ko nang smalu cam nya.. wlaupun kdg2 ko sot2..p ku nang epie bab da owg ceriakan aku..mun ko da tbaca post tk, ku mk ucap thanx2 a lot... GOD BLESS YOU... ;')

OuR LovE nevEr MeANt To bE

(A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle) 

Girl: Slow
down. Im scared. 
Guy: No this is fun. 
Girl: No its not. Please, its to scary! 
Guy: Then tell me you love me. 
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down! 
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug. 
(Girl hugs him) 
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me. 

In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived. 
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die.....  ;(

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Hooreyyy..!!!!!XD

Arluwwww..!! ehee..im back again..yeeesss..!!!exam is over baby!!i like~~ tggu next year bok exam g..g lma yaa..huhuu,.blit jk dr skul tek..waaa..bnyi pwut ku eyhh.. "MAKANANN~~ MAKANANNN~~~ " camya la bnyi pwut ku tek..bad mood jap dh blit umh tek.. ZARINA tauk knk ku bad mood..kan ZA kan..????ahahahahaa,.. pas mkn, msuk blit trus,..on laptop,buka fb then layan game LIFE 4 DEATH 2..yala rutin harian ku... suddenly....,, "..tuttt..tuttt..tutttt..tutttt.." someone is texting me.. waaaa....got party2 2nite..wanna go o not hoo..?hmmm..hehehee,..opkoz la i go..!! dont wanna miz this out le..XD

laaa...nmpaknya xpat ku lyan fb mlm tk..huhuu.,gonna miz ya..:)

ouhyaa..da cgek cta tk tek..da sowang clazmate ku ya,..nya da kapel ,lam claz ya juak.. grek nya pdh, :I LOVE YOU"..p dat guy didnt give any respon..ahahahahaa,..n the funniest thing is..that gurl says.. "Kenak ko xbalas blit???" *astagaa.. msti mk bg respon juak ka..ya bok maksa..* =.="

adushh..ssh2 kapel kinek..ku pun da juak experience,..phm ku an suma yaa..n torang pun kmpom da experience msg2 kan..? byk2 kan bsbr la an grek torang yaa..mun nya over, sepak jk idong nya..kasi ummppphhhh!! ahahahahahahaa,..sak nya..* terlebih sudaa..kihkihkih...* hmm..tringat ku kat sowng kawan ku tk.. "ZARINA VERYCUTELITIS GURLZ!!!! UDAH TINDUK NYAK.. DANIIII..!!!!!" ahahahahahahaa,..mun torang mk tauk..nya tdo kinek oo..mimpi jmpa an putera duyung..*jangn marah mun ko da baca post ku tk..bleeekkk!! :p * oklah..better ku chaw lok..mk ciap2 g..lak da party,..yayy..!! ahahahaa,..C u soon my bloggie syg.. muaaaahhhssss...!!! GOD BLESS ME,...:P

WALK ON WATER
           OR
DROWN WITH LYRICS <3 

Holiday Come Closer

Arluww..!! ehee..lma x update status ksygan ku tk eyhh..induw la sma kmo..!!:D
boring skul tek baa..haiz !! nasib da  Zarina Verycutelitis Gurlz  nman ku..ateeeiii...byk lu cta mek 2..ahahahahahaa..mek 2 cta sal  MANOKZ yang tsyg..padu nya da juak owg nok minat TUTTTTTTTTTTT.........tetak jk ku dgr nya cta..xpat ku lpa pa za pdh ya..kan ku ingt hgga hjung nyawa..*confident lu g ya..kihkihkih..*byk dh bnda ku tauk sal nya..lwak2...XD
n then mek owg pun stat exam dhya,...molah exam ya mcm pa nda.. tyme exam kesusasteraan mlayu tek,.adoii..bca solan  dh wat mta ku ngntk..mk tulis pun ssh, mk jk mata tk tdo..*amai sut..ahahahaha*..malu ku tek eyh..tyme mk tulis2 ya..ku engkah la plak ku tas mja, tlanjur tdo ku , dgerak mis Wilma..MALU2!!  >.<" dhlh muka ku mhdap g tepi..xsdar bh ku tyme ya,.mk jk tlelap..ya bok ngntk..eee~~ mls ku mk sentuh sal yaa.. hahahaa..ouhya!! sdar x sdar CUTI MK TIBAAAAAAA..!!! 7 DAY LEFT!! aaaaaawwwwww~~ i like babes!!ehee..lam otak ku juz da cuti, cuti n cuti..huhuu,.. hmm..sdar x sdar..jam dh kul 5 ..,aiyooo...guz ku mndi lok..lmbt ku lak..ahahaa,..*maka ary2 nang terlambat jak2..heee..sshhhhh~ boh bising..kntoi lak...* lak g skul..xtauk eyh exam pa x klak koh..gawat..ahahaa,.WISH ME A GUDLUCK k...ehee..ok then, c u later k my bloggie..muuaahhs..!!c ya..!! :D

Pa hoe..?

halo2 ! errmm..xda cta best ri tok..mlalui kdupan cam besa..klua umh pun xda..pening plak pas enjoi mlm tek..ateii..nang best alu halloween tahun tk eyh ! memory yg xpat ku lupak..yg best ada, yg sedih pun adaa..mcm2 tjadi..haiz ! pa pun..,jnji ku puas enjoi..mls la mk pk bnda2 nok wat ku sakit aty yaa...buduh tol.. *not me, but him* for those who msgnya nok me xlayan, so sory k..eheheee,..not in mud mk lyan msg torang..sory guys ! ;) ehehehee,..ouhyaa.,sok exam eyhh..adoee...dhlh xda pgang bku alu tk..*pk drik dh pnde,ney nda..lol..* mls la mk pk sal yaa...bnda nok ku tggu2 ya,.2 weeks g..HOLIDAYYYY..!!!! yayyy..!! xsbar eyhh..msa ya la nok stdent tggu2kan..am i rite??ahahahaa,.ntah pa dipolah ku tyme cuti lak..aiyaaaa..

Story by Me

Cinderella was a nice gal Always did what she was told Put others before herself Cinderella had lots of hopes and dreams One day in the town she heard of the ball CInderella wanted to go Really really bad Her step mom gave her touble Her sisters were ok But she never went Beucase no one cared Poor cinderella cried Dreams really don't come true Fairytales are fake Cinderella never found her prince She never really went to any ball She lost all her hopes and dreams in life Cinderella never got a granted wish Poor cinderella True love never found her When she was old Cinderella died an old maid When Cinderella went to heaven She was treated like a real princess Angels planed a ball for her And made her a pretty white gown Jesus danced with her Then he took her by the hand And led her to her handsome chosen prince It was all worth the shattered hopes And dreams in life To have a fairytale ending in heaven

Damn Love Ever

When love is an affliction,
There's not much one can do.
Despite the way you've treated me,
I'm still in love with you.

I am the wave and you the rock
Against which I must break:
Again, again the crushing jolt,
The pain I can't forsake;

Again, again the long retreat
To safety, far from shore,
And then again, I don't know why,
The long trip back for more.

Perhaps it is nostalgia for
A long uncertain glow,
Or just some hope so beautiful
I cannot let it go.

Perhaps it is the need to try
For those who must depend
On who we are and what we do,
For whom this should not end.

What evil makes you hurt me so,
What defect of the heart?
What sense there is no greater whole
Of which you are a part?

What lonely choice that only you
Be served by what you choose?
What hard, hard fear of losing what
It is a gift to lose?

I dream sometimes my waiting love
Has made you turn again.
But you care only for yourself,
And I must love in vain.

Why This Should Happen..?

We started out as friends and now it's love.
How beautiful to move so easily
From comradeship to passionate intimacy,
Pure gain, with no rough edges to remove.
This turn was nothing I'd been thinking of,
No maybes or perhapses, consciously.
I knew desire, but love was not for me
Until I felt my heart from friendship move.
I never felt so happily at home
As I do now, so rich in what life brings.
Your pleasure now is mine, as mine is yours.
I never realized that my life alone
Flitted like a ghost among dead things,
Glancing in through other people's doors. 

Happy Day

Hello my sweety diary..waaaa...best ary nie..ehee..spend tyme with my friend Zarina Nelson..g parkson,.jln2 cari mkn..1stly tmpat yang nak dtuju is KFC!!*betapa ku miss sma CHEEZY WEDGES* ahernya tlepas jga rindu ku kat dia..ehee..then jln2 g..window shopping jk ku an za..after a few minute,..g mam at sugarbun..tiba2 miss sma Mr. Spagetti..ehee..so,menu ku an za sma jer..fuhh...knyg giler! smpai sesak nafas..*gila eyh..* ouhya! td ku jmpa an Mr.Ches..ahahahaa,.talkin2,.msa berlalu tlalu cpat..mlm nie dia blik bintulu..*ang mancal2 dlm bas,ches..ahahaha..* err..buat Ms.Zarina, thanx so much 4 spending ur tyme with me 2day..paling best...tyme tercari2 tempat nak pg mkn..1stly nak pg bli kokoberry je..then timbul plak big apple, then timbul plak si kfc,sugarbun,.MD,aduyaaiiii...mcm2 krenah..ehmm..ok laa..dh nak pg da nie..c u tmrow my bunny...*muahhhsss*...gudnite...^.^

This is for you....

Death had established himself in the Red Room, 
the White House having become his natural 
abode: chalk-white facade, pillars like the bones 
of extinct empires, armed men crawling its halls 
or looking down, with suspicion, from its roof; 
its immense luxury, thick carpets, its plush velvet chairs—
all this made Death comfortable, bony as he is, a fact 
you'd barely notice, his camouflage a veil of flesh 
drawn over him, his tailor so adroit, and he so elegant, 
so GQ, almost a dandy, so suited for the tables 
where the crystal, silverware, the swans of ice gleamed 
with the polished purity of light on precious things; 
Death was the guest of honor here, confiding, convivial 
among friends who leaned to light his cigar—his power 
seemed their own, body counts at their command; 
a power beyond even their boy-wet dreams 
was now a custom they feared to lose: each saw 
the world the way a hooded falcon on the fist 
sees it, blind, waiting for the next release; one word 
could bury villages alive, could send 
battalions to an early grave— 
                                          so Death can rest 
assured, smiling at such a harvest—and so 
deliciously unseasonable, like berries in winter. 
Welcome houseguest, he stretches his ancient 
frame, warm under expensive wool, sipping wine, 
picking his teeth with a last bone, 
meat all the sweeter for being 
the lambs of honor, corn-fed and unsuspecting; 
or the children playing in the rubble 
who reach down for a souvenir of steel 
that has fallen from the sky—really, 
Death has seldom had a better season or such 
a winning score; he must see to their protection, 
these little men who think to be his master—
flatter a fool and make him useful, he thinks, 
and smiles, benignly, whitely, at his hosts, 
assuring them of his gratitude, his presence 
at their councils, his everlasting support ... 
until, no longer able to hide 
his triumph, his delight, forgetting the flesh 
he has clothed himself in for the occasion, 
he rubs his hands together 
in the ancient gesture of satisfaction, 
naked bone on bone—how the sound grates, 
how the grateful sparks fly!

Our world still have some innocence.. but no one can see it, no one look close some moments we live it, it is amazing,. but no one really knows.....

Happy Tree Friends Ka-Pow! - Three Courses of Death

FUCK THE WORLD

FUCK THE WORLD I'VE HAD IT! TIME TO RIOT END THE WORLD I'M THE SEED OF THE DEVIL THE ONE GOD WILL TRY TO KILL I'VE HAD IT FUCK U ALL FUCK THE WORLD FUCK LIFE ITS GOOD FOR NOTHING DON'T TRY LIVE FOR WAT REASON U LIVE TO LEAVE BEHIDE PEOPLE I WILL DIE EARLY AND LEAVE NOTHIN FOR NOBODY CAUSE NOBODY CARES

what is happen to me..?

Hey my diary... boring hari nie..xtauk nak wat pe..dahlh x trun skolah...not in mood...*actually something was happen lastnite..haiz!* ouhya! Tiba2 miss sma ex-student 5A 09'..,ehehe..buat sume geng2 sma plak,I MISS U OL..!! *walupun da yg lupakan aku, aku tetap syg korang..cewaahhhh..*
ok laa..need to go now..muaaaahhhhhhhhhssss..!!!****